I think it doesn't matter how old or young you are, or how secure other people may think you are, we all worry about the future. Some days are worse than others. I have been going through a rough patch lately. Job securitydoes not exist anywhere since the 1980s. In university I was told to prepare as many skills as possible because it was highly likely I would work at least at three different jobs, let alone employers.i have doubled that. I have been looking at other job opportunities since many schools and universities are cutting back on their English programs and i am really not wanting to go to another foreign country since I have two dogs under my care as well as four birds. I am not leaving them behind. And it is too complicated to go anywhere but back to Canada. And I am not sure of a job there, even though i am a registered and qualified high school teacher. Lately my knees have become more of an issue so a job that requires standing for hours at a time or using a lot of stairs is no longer possible.
So I have been thinking about going back when my time here is done. But I hate moving. I have stuff. I like my stuff. I want to take back some of my stuff but that means I have to sort through it all and get rid of most of it. Which would be okay at the end but I think that will be about a year from now and at present I have another complication: my building has been bought by a new couple and they don't seem very dog friendly. Generally Koreans are not very dog friendly. The history of keeping dogs as housepets is very short. It is changing but I have had a lot of experience with aggression from people on the street. People kicking at my dogs, yelling at me, angry when the dogs pee and telling me it stinks. Sorry, but you don't own the light poles and you cannot smell the dog pee from your house and it stinks less than from the drunk men who pee there at night. I have witnessed a lot of that, too. I pick up the dog poop. I carry special little bags just for that reason. I don't know how my new landlord and landlady feel about dogs. But they also put their business in the apartment next to me and live right above me. Maybe they like dogs, but anyway I am trying to keep them very low key. Not using the backyard as much because we share it now. Walking them more. Restricting them to my bedroom so they can't hear them back as much. I will be so glad when the election is over so the loudspeakers don't keep setting them off barking.
I hope to just move once when it is time to go home because I don't have the physical power I used to have. I cannot carry heavy things becauae of my knees. Last week I moved a trunk full of plant pots to my friend's place. My knees were aching all night. Also there are things I need here, you know, kitchen stuff, furniture, extra clothes, that when I move this time I plan to get rid of all of that at one time. I do plan to sell some stuff this summer that I never use anymore but I still don't want to move the rest twice.
I just worry. I guess that is my nature. Guess the proof is in my gray and thinning hair. So I will be as optimistic as I can but do as I always do and prepare for the worst. That means I will start selling stuff online next week and keep my babies in the bedroom with me but they will be happy to get so many more walks.